So I have this problem where I think I’m superwoman. I am constantly convincing myself that I can achieve everything, today, without assistance. I over-commit, under-achieve, and often feel guilty about all the things I could not accomplish at the end of the day. Then the next day rolls around and I start the vicious cycle all over again. **sigh**
Case in point.
It was Friday, two weeks ago, and I was planning to go into the office on Saturday morning to take advantage of the optional overtime. Normally, that would’ve been fine, but I also had a mandatory church meeting that day, a bachelorette party to attend, and perhaps a little book writing to do…it was sure to be a full day. So I had convinced myself that I would get to work at 7am, work until 10, head to church and be 15 minutes late for the 10 am planning meeting, drop my bookbags off at the church back to school give away, leave by noon, go back to work and stay til 3, meet my friends downtown around 3ish to hang for the bachelorette festivities, hang out late with the girls, and then get home, sleep, and be up and present at 8am church service, then head down to volunteer at a different Back To School event at 10am for 8 hours or so. In my mind, this was totally doable. By Friday, though, I decided not to do the bachelorette party to conserve my funds, so with that change of plans, I was certain that I could get everything done.
Then on Saturday morning, it happened. I overslept. Not only did I wake up so late that I missed work at 7, but it was 9:15am! At this point, I wasn’t even sure that I would make the church planning meeting on time. I still needed to get dressed, do my hair, drop off my recycling (forgot to mention that above), purchase two more backpacks for the giveaway (that too), and then drive to the meeting… YIKES!!! Where would I find the time? And more than that, I was SUPER MAD that I had missed overtime! SUPER. MAD. Even though it was clear to me that my body needed the rest, I was ANGRY that it had refused to go the distance with me! It was like a betrayal! Lord, knows I could’ve put that extra money to good use! But I didn’t make it to work the overtime because my body had let me down…or had it?
I’m sure I waisted another 20 minutes fuming around my house, in disbelief that I had slept so late. Normally, I can shake things off, but this time I couldn’t. I was mad! Really mad. This went on for a while. Knowing that it wouldn’t be healthy to remain this upset all day, I decided to call the one person that can calm me down and tell me “it’ll be okay” when I’ve disappointed myself–my mom. (She’s awesome.) But right before I dialed her number I saw this on my Facebook news feed…
Big, huge, sigh.
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Hey Ari Speakers!
Food for thought…
As my father would say…
“A word to the wise is sufficient.”
I am officially back in my blogging groove! Missed you guys! Thanks for hanging with me. I had a good time writing the “30 in 30″ series, and I hoped you all enjoyed. Now it’s really time to reflect on what the next 30 years of my life will be like. I am convinced that nothing just happens. We have to make a decision, make efforts, and put in the work necessary to achieve our goals and fulfill our dreams.
So with that in mind, right after my 30th birthday, I decided to get refocused on my goals. Months ago I began to pursue my dream of writing a book and started working diligently toward it, but before I knew it I had let other things (interests, projects,etc) distract me and I got so busy that I literally had to put the book aside. Thank God, I slowly started removing those things and have now developed a new writing schedule. I’d like to be finished writing by the end of the summer. I started thinking that goal was way too ambitious, but then I saw this wisdom from super-producer Pharrell show up on my Facebook news feed.
What do you think about this? Is this realistic? Or is it possible to be too ambitious? Read more…
I dedicate this entire “30 in 30″ series to my AWESOME PARENTS!!!
Without you two, I don’t exist. Without you there are no 30 years to count, no reflections to share, and no breaths to take.
Thank you Mommy and Daddy for my very life!
Thank you Daddy!!! for being the single-most dependable man in my life, for showing me what real love is, for providing for me so well all these years, while still insisting that I become an independent woman! As I say all the time you are the first guy to win my heart without breaking it! You are the absolute BEST Daddy in the ENTIRE world!!! Wouldn’t trade you for nothing! Not even Lelar’s cherry cheesecake!
Mamo!!! Love you to pieces!!! You are, indeed, my #1 cheerleader! You are my support, my caretaker when I’m sick, and my friend when they are few. You are my homegirl to call in the middle of the night when I can’t sleep. You are FREAKING AWESOME! Nobody like you. Not now. Not ever. Not never. Keep being you. I love you forever!
Mom and Dad, I could’ve made you be just another item on my list, but you aren’t just another thing I’m grateful for. You are my foundation. I thank God upon every remembrance of you!
Much love also to my stepmom, my Tanyar! We’ve been hanging for some twenty plus years now! Thank you for loving me like your own. Thank you for your support, the way you give, and for everything you’ve EVER DONE FOR ME!!! I could not ask for a better Stepmom! Love you TO DEATH!!!
So now…onto my top Life Lessons…
#5 Time Is Fleeting and People Move, So Drink the Moments Deeply.
It was August 2005 and I had just moved to Chicago to begin my Master’s degree program. It was both an exciting and terrifying time. One afternoon I was downtown Chicago on State Street, doing a little shopping with Dad and Tanya before they left. All of a sudden it hit me, that I would never be around my college friends on a regular basis again. Just 3 months earlier I and my buddies from Howard University (Washington, DC) were celebrating our accomplishment of graduating college. My linesisters and I were flooding the main yard of our school with pink and green shirts, bags, and umbrellas. And I was spending my Sundays with my DC Church family, worshipping, eating dinner, and hanging out afterwards. But now several days and miles away, in a random epiphany on a sunny Chicago afternoon, it hit me that my DC life as I knew it was over, never to return. Sure I would go back to visit, and I would see a lot of those people again, but my time living as part of that community had ended and I could never go back. This is when I first really experienced the idea of “time as fleeting.” The point is, enjoy the people you love while you can because nothing stays the same. People move. People die. Life changes all the time. So drink the moments deeply.
#4 Women and Girls Matter and Have Human Rights That Everyone Should Respect. Listen, I am pretty sure I came out of the womb a feminist-womanist. I have NO tolerance for women being mistreated, dominated, abused, controlled, discriminated against, not paid or treated equally, oppressed, and any other awful verb you want to place there. Women are not a lesser sex. Eve was called a helper not because she was to be subservient to Adam, but because she had something to give to Adam that he would not otherwise have. Check the original Hebrew. I am not making this up.
#3 Real Love Never Ends. I’ve been disappointed in relationships enough to know Read more…